Denial…?

I was supposed to be tested to make sure the gestational diabetes were gone 6 weeks after I gave birth. It’s been 4 months and I still haven’t gone. I’m pretty sure this is because I don’t want to know but if I’m still diabetic I need to get it under control. I did check my blood sugar level a few months ago with my home machine. It wasn’t bad but it wasn’t great either. I guess I’m writing this to hold myself accountable. I need to stay healthy- especially with the baby relying solely on me.

I did reactivate my gym membership yesterday. It’s really pricey but they have drop in childcare! Arya did great and I got 1.5 carefree hours to workout. Wow is my body tight and sore from taking care of this baby. I’m hoping to make this a habit before I go back to work but I have realistic expectations for my capacity after I start back up. And I felt great afterwards. ¬†Also, if I just need a break I can drop Arya off and use the hot tub and sauna. The daycare woman highly recommend this.