Sleep training is going great! For the last two days, Arya has fallen asleep on her own with no crying. I just give her a bottle until she is sleepy, put her in the crib, and say goodnight. I feel very lucky to have gotten to this point so quickly and relatively painlessly.
Naptime is still much more challenging. She does great at daycare but when she is with me on the weekends she resists napping with every fiber of her being. I’m trying to keep her on the same schedule as daycare and while she looks tired (yawning, rubbing eyes) she still cries for about 30-45 minutes, when I put her down, before falling asleep. But she will sleep for about an hour-so I suppose we are getting there.
Also, my mom had a stroke. It was really mild but scary. Especially given that my parents have both been in and out of the hospital since November. And she had the stroke in the morning and didn’t tell anyone or go to the hospital until that night. Its so frustrating but she is just going to do what she is going to do. As of now, it looks like she will make an almost full recovery so I am relieved but cautious-waiting for the next shoe to drop I guess.
I’ve been doing pretty good at eating better to control my blood sugar. I’m just generally trying to cut down carbs and sugar and to eat more veggies. I’m definitely feeling better so i hope its working.
Arya is at an amazing age where she seems to do new things almost daily. She is also getting really fast at crawling and is obsessed with books. We were given a membership to a kids amusement park called Fairyland that we can literally walk to from our house. Its old and kitschy (so right up my alley) and is rumored to have inspired Walt Disney to create Disneyland. A lot of the stuff is for bigger kids but she has been having a blast exploring:
I finally took another blood test and i’m (again) officially a pre-diabetic. I should admit that this I have (maybe subconsciously) known this was the case for a while and just didn’t want to deal with it. So, I’m proud of myself for asking my doctor to order another test so I can take steps to address this before it gets out of control. I just read that 70% of people with PCOS have insulin intolerance that leads to pre-diabetes. This makes me feel slightly better but I hate that I feel stigmatized for having a “fat people’s” condition. I definitely feel like I would have dealt with this earlier had I not felt this stigma and body shame and it feels shitty. I definitely identify as a body positive anti-body shaming, proud plus size lady-but I’m still affected by all of this anti-fat BS and I’m worried that having to regulate what I eat will bring these feeling more to the surface. I guess it may be time to start therapy again.
I spent the better part of the morning looking up the glycemic index of different food (yipee!) and now I’m going to dive into a big work project to get my mind off of the lack of pizza I will soon be facing.
Here are some amazing pictures from our trip to Buffalo that my super-talented friend took at the Albright-Knox Art Gallery:
A few days ago my doctor ordered me to take a bunch of blood glucose tests because I have PCOS which can cause insulim intolerance. I had to drink this nasty sugary drink and have my blood drawn a few times in the two hours afterwards.
My HMO automatically emails me test results-usually with no explanation but the result and what a “normal range” would be. Well I got the results via email and they didn’t look good. Just in the beginning of the “not normal” range. I was at work so I shot a quick email to the doctor on the way to another Federal Court mediation.
During a lull in the mediation (which is pretty much the entire time) I got a response back from one of the NP’s. She said they had diagnosed me with diabetes. Who the hell gives someone a diagnosis of a disease via email??? I had to pretend not to be totally freaking out while frantically googling everything about diabetes on my phone.
I responded asking for more information and she replied quickly saying she had misread my results and that I’m at risk for developing diabetes but that I don’t actually have it. What?? I was very relived but also super pissed at this little oversight.
She did put me on a medication and suggested that I cut down on carbs which are my only joy these days.. arghhh