pre-diabetes

I finally took another blood test and i’m (again) officially a pre-diabetic. I should admit that this I have (maybe subconsciously) known this was the case for a while and just didn’t want to deal with it. So, I’m proud of myself for asking my doctor to order another test so I can take steps to address this before it gets out of control. I just read that 70% of people with PCOS have insulin intolerance that leads to pre-diabetes. This makes me feel slightly better but I hate that I feel stigmatized for having a “fat people’s” condition. I definitely feel like I would have dealt with this earlier had I not felt this stigma and body shame and it feels shitty. I definitely identify as a body positive anti-body shaming, proud plus size lady-but I’m still affected by all of this anti-fat BS and I’m worried that having to regulate what I eat will bring these feeling more to the surface. I guess it may be time to start therapy again.

I spent the better part of the morning looking up the glycemic index of different food (yipee!) and now I’m going to dive into a big work project to get my mind off of the lack of pizza I will soon be facing.

Here are some amazing pictures from our trip to Buffalo that my super-talented friend took at the Albright-Knox Art Gallery:

Happy Birthday-you have diabetes!

A few days ago my doctor ordered me to take a bunch of blood glucose tests because I have PCOS which can cause insulim intolerance.  I had to drink this nasty sugary drink and have my blood drawn a few times in the two hours afterwards.

My HMO automatically emails me test results-usually with no explanation but the result and what a “normal range” would be.  Well I got the results via email and they didn’t look good. Just in the beginning of the “not normal” range.  I was at work so I shot a quick email to the doctor on the way to another Federal Court mediation.

During a lull in the mediation (which is pretty much the entire time) I got a response back from one of the NP’s.  She said they had diagnosed me with diabetes.  Who the hell gives someone a diagnosis of a disease via email???  I had to pretend not to be totally freaking out while frantically googling everything about diabetes on my phone.

I responded asking for more information and she replied quickly  saying she had misread my results and that I’m at risk for developing diabetes but that I don’t actually have it.  What?? I was very relived but also super pissed at this little oversight.

She did put me on a medication and suggested that I cut down on carbs which are my only joy these days..  arghhh