I’m starting to feel a bit better. Talking to other people in the same boat has really helped.
I decided to ask for the sex of my two embryos and they are both female! The doctor thinks the mosaic is transferable so I really have two shots (well maybe one and 3/4). Now, the waiting game of the surgery and (now six month healing time afterwards) is going to be the hardest part.
One of my amazing co-workers who talked me down when I got the news reminded me of her own infertility journey. For her it lasted several years and she reassured me that she now sees it as a “blip” in her past. So I’m going to keep reminding myself that I am just in a small blip in the timeline of my life.